Ashley

ivonlyjustbegun @ 2005-02-03T16:20:00

2005-02-04T00:20:44Z

just breathe

ivonlyjustbegun @ 2005-01-18T14:13:00

2005-01-18T22:15:53Z

so yah. im angry. i love heather. ive got a fever. and the only cure is more cowbell. so there's that.

"inside the box is my heart"

2004-12-21T08:23:58Z

so it's my 22nd christmas. and for about the last 6 or 7 of them ive gotten depressed. for various reasons. i thought i was gonna be ok this year but no something new happened and then it triggers all the other emotions. the reasons why i get depressed every christmas are probably the same as everyone else. one is the top reason; i have no special someone to share this holiday with and every other song and movie and whatever about this time of year makes you feel sad about that. i havent had a real boyfriend ever. and im almost 22 years old. so sometimes i feel like there might be something wrong with me or theres something wrong with all the guys in the world. but i know either isnt true... other times i get frustrated either with other people that lose sight of the true meaning of christmas and get all wrapped up in presents and other wordly things (no pun intended) and other times i find i too lose sight. and that frustrates me even more. cause i know better. this year i was doing fine. but then the realization that my brother and his girlfriend would need somewhere to sleep when they came to visit. my parents turned my brothers old room into my room and my room into my dads office shortly after my brother left. they werent planning ahead for when he visited. when they realized that he would need somewhere to sleep when he visited they decided to buy a futon in place of a couch and would have him sleep in the living room. but then he got a girlfriend and they think it would be akward for her to sleep in our living room. so they think o we can put them in ashley's room because who cares where she sleeps. the first time around i ended up housesitting so i really couldnt argue it but this time theres no way im sleeping at someone elses house on christmas eve. so i put up a fight. mostly because i dono how anyone else feels but heres my feeling since after all this is my journal where i share my thoughts, i strongly disagree with an unwed couple sleeping in the same bed. i dont hate my brother or his girlfriend but i dont have to agree with their actions. and the thought of them in MY bed is VERY uncomfortable. so i expressed this to my parents thankfully my mom took my side eventually but only because she asked some of her friends what they thought. and she bases a lot of her thoughts and actions on how other people live their lives. but my dad of course thinks i'm being selfish and he doesnt really care about how i feel. he even tried to guilt me by saying i could sleep with my mom and he would sleep in the living room. but considering that wasnt the point i didnt go for that. neither did my mom for that matter. so anyway they are going to sleep in the living room but i still cant shake that feeling like my parents like my brother better than me or something. i know this seems like im so dramatic and this is stupid but im not such a normal person. on another note im having a party on thursday. the majority of times i have a party i have about a 25% turn out from who i invited. but we will see. on a good note there is a possibility that my mom, dad, brother, and brothers girlfriend might come to the christmas eve service at my church. and so im praying God does something in all of their hearts and in mine. i really need just a refreshing spirit. i cant let things get to me anymore. i just need to look to God for joy and peace. i need to have faith. well im praying things look up. i only work 1 day this week (tomorrow) i nanny from 630 till 1130 and then work at the portrait studio from 4 till 7 or 8. and then i have wednesday thru sunday off from both jobs so i get a little bit of a vacation, which will be nice. the play is over too and theres no youth group this week so i like have a real vacation. no commitments. its amazing. so i will hopefully get lots of rest. and hopefully i wont get sick cause that seems to happen every year too. maybe due to stress. so im trying not to be stressed. everything will be ok. well merry christmas everyone and God be with you.

ivonlyjustbegun @ 2004-11-09T15:48:00

2004-11-09T23:51:36Z

so i lied about posting pictures of halloween cause im too lazy and i only come on here if im incredibly bored. if you wanna see they are on my myspace though. well like 2 of them. like it matters im just babbling cause im bored. ummm... yah life is normal thats all kay bye.

ivonlyjustbegun @ 2004-10-31T22:38:00

2004-11-01T06:38:59Z

happy halloween! pictures to come...

its funny cause its true

2004-10-26T22:07:57Z

I never update

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ivonlyjustbegun @ 2004-10-26T15:02:00

2004-10-26T22:04:50Z

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ivonlyjustbegun @ 2004-10-08T13:46:00

2004-10-08T20:46:12Z

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ivonlyjustbegun @ 2004-08-28T00:53:00

2004-08-28T07:53:49Z

so i saw the notebook and i totally cried.

kitty and ashley bff

2004-07-17T09:24:06Z

a tribute to kat <3

the day after my 18th birthday

the day after kat's 18th birthday

ivonlyjustbegun @ 2004-06-24T06:48:00

2004-06-24T13:52:12Z

hi i made my journal pretty take a look...

ivonlyjustbegun @ 2004-06-22T04:01:00

2004-06-22T11:04:15Z

dear ashley.
i can't sleep & it's 4 am.
I think this house has a curse thingy.
um so I updated your journal.
I hope you're sleeping.
thanks for letting me use your room.
I hope your bed smells like me when I'm gone.
you see me, I see you.
at least I have shrek.
k, I love you bye.
k@.

ivonlyjustbegun @ 2004-05-30T22:07:00

2004-05-31T05:19:03Z

so wow ive been in a major rollercoaster of a mood lately. ive been like crazy stressed cause i still dont have a full time job so i cant drive my new car and instead i have to deal with my piece of crap car that doesnt like to start. friday i was in such a bad mood because of it and poor sarah and whitnie. they like wanted to kill me im sure. i was supposed to hang out with people but i was in a bad mood and they were gonna watch lord of the rings and that would have prolly just put me in a worse mood so i went home and then i found out they didnt even see it they all hung out instead so you can imagine how much that bummed me out. but whatever. so saturday i was actually in a pretty good mood. i went to worship practice and i then i cut tiffanys hair cause her sister did a kinda hack job to it so it needed fixing. um then me and lisa and vivi went to dinner and then saw a movie and then went to fridays for dessert and we totally had a blast so i was happy and then we went and watched clueless (so good) at lisas and whitnie came too then me and vivi went to visit michael at the mattress store cause he had to be there all night and that was fun i guess i want this one mattress omigosh you like melt into it when you sit or lay on it. anyway then at around 1 in the morning we decided to leave and my car wouldnt start again only this time it was worse than normal. finally around 2 michael had me take vivi home in his truck and i left my keys with him so he could try and make it start thankfully by the time i got back it started so i finally got home around 230 and had to be up at 9 for church. well i woke up and afraid that my car wouldnt start i asked if i could please take my new car my parents said no we got in a fight and i stormed out of my house, thankfully my car started but i cried the whole way to church, which is not a good thing while you are driving especially cause i was wearing my glasses today and they got all fogged up. but i made it and everything was going ok i went to lunch with whitnie and then i went to visit kat at her work and i bought a fish. and then i went to leave and it didnt start again so i had to jump start it and it was drama and more drama and i finally got home and sat on my butt for the rest of the night. but the dodgers won so yay. tomorrow im going on a boat i better get hecka tan. thats all bye.

ivonlyjustbegun @ 2004-05-24T22:53:00

2004-05-25T05:53:34Z

Which Broadway Musical Are You Destined to perform in? by dangerousgame
Name/Nickname
Age
Sex
Color
Broadway Musical	Phantom of the Opera
Part	Lead

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ivonlyjustbegun @ 2004-05-24T22:49:00

2004-05-25T05:49:56Z

Theme songs of your life by eponine
your name?
love song:	turn the page - aaliyah
depressing song:	on my own - les miserables
party song:	what i like about you - lillix
what-the-hell-ever song:	stacy's mom - fountains of wayne
your life	perfect day - hoku

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ivonlyjustbegun @ 2004-05-22T09:42:00

2004-05-22T16:46:58Z

last night was seriously so much fun! i went to see shrek 2 and o wow its funny! and then i went to lisa's house and she made a bunch of us dinner and we celebrated michaels bday and well at around midnight after all the old people went home to go to sleep aka sarah, michael, jesse, and brent, we being myself, lisa, whitnie, vivian, and sam went to the beach and it was a seriously good time. then i slept at lisas so that people didnt come snatch her in the night hahaha also i was too tired to go home. now im here and i gotta go get ready to leave for the weekend for my uncles wedding.
Happy birthday mommy!!!!

ivonlyjustbegun @ 2004-05-09T21:30:00

2004-05-10T04:37:52Z

seriously i ate waaay too much today. my dad this morning made this whole like brunch crazy thing. he made waffles, eggs benedict, bagels with cream cheese and lox, and sausage, and this like drink that i forgot the name of but its basically orange juice and champagne the first sip was like hmm interesting, the second was like ok maybe i could like this and then the third was like o no this is gross. so needless to say i didnt drink much and i held true to my no pork rule and so i took the ham off my eggs benedict and didnt eat sausage. a vegetarian would be proud of me. haha. like i care. like you care for that matter. anyway then for dinner tonight our next door neighbors made homemade sushi for us at their house and it was hecka good. then after dinner i got to make like 8 rolls of my own plus i have the 2 that he was showing me how to make it with. so i have 10 sushi rolls and like so i invited like 6 people to come over and yah one person actually can come. so needless to say im gonna be eating sushi for like every meal tomorrow. haha. anyhoo happy mothers day to all you mothers and future mothers out there. kaybye.

i got this from cindy

2004-04-29T00:58:25Z

1.Go into your LJ's archives.
2.Find your 23rd post (or closest to).
3.Find the fifth sentence (or closest to).
4.Post the text of the sentence in your blog along with these instructions.

well since my journal is still kinda new i went to my old one and the 23rd post was on september 12, 2001.
"then i woke up later and i was still uneasy."

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!

2004-04-27T06:27:40Z

omigosh this is so funny.

ivonlyjustbegun @ 2004-04-23T00:19:00

2004-04-23T07:37:58Z

so i havent updated in like FOREVER. so heres whats new in my life...
um my brother and his girlfriend visited over spring break that was interesting. we went to magic mountain one of the days. i guess it was fun. it was just akward being just the 3 of us.
um ive just been nannying in the mornings, and ive had other occassional babysitting jobs so im getting a little bit of money, but im still looking for a full time job. now i REALLY need one cause my dad bought me a car off ebay but like i have to pay him for it. but my parents said i cant even sit in the car until i have a job. so now i have to find one even more so. AH! but the car is cool from what i know so far, its a black 97 volkswagon jetta. im going to name her betty, my jetty. haha. im a geek.
tuesday was fun it was the last night of college group till we split up. so we had a party and we danced and did the cha cha slide. so good.
wednesday i hung out with megan, we ate sushi and went to walmart. thats like one of our rituals its funny. i bought a dodgers hat for 10 bux. not bad...
tonight was youth group. it was cool. same as always. then fridays, that was fun tonight cause everyone was in a good mood and we were all talking and shtuff.
tomorrow im going to a dodgers game they play the giants. aka they will win! itll be fun im going with sam, megan, and megans old roommate. the 2 guys are giants fans and me and megan are dodgers fans so itll be fun. i asked sam if he wanted to place bets tonight. he said hed buy me a hot dog if the dodgers scored a run in the first inning. i told him i dont like hot dogs. but anyway im seriously rambling now. i think i need to go to bed seeing how i have to be up in 6 hours to go to "work".
kay bye.

if i was in highschool and scene, this would be my entry...

2004-04-07T22:58:13Z

Today was really awful.
I got out of bed really early because my mom was yelling at me.

I feel good because today I getting my lip pierced! Finally! Mom said I could and she's signed the forms and EVERYTHING!

I'm so hardcore. Me and Buzz went to the mall today, and I stole a whole heap of stuff. I got a Good Charlotte CD, a couple of DVDs and some new boots. Buzz got caught, but he fought his way out, and then we stole some lady's car and smashed it into a phone booth.

Last night I had to go and pay Joshua's bail. He's such a jerk. He got arrested for punching the Walmart clerk in the face for refusing to sell him beer. He's only 16!

I want to tell the world that I love you all! You're all so special to me!

I am making this journal friends only because I don't want the world to read what I'm writing, even though I'm posting it on the internet.

Today, I got a digital camera! Yes! Here's ten thousand photographs of my cat.

I want to say thanks to Babybob556 for making the background and icons for my journal. Thanks hon, ur super special!

I went to the doctor yesterday, and he said I have bipolar disorder, which makes me different enough to be interesting, but the same as all the other cool people with bipolar disorder.

You should all do this quiz! It's amazingly accurate. You just put in your name and birthday, and it will tell you you're a moron.

That's enough for now. But I'll leave you with this thought - sharing your life with strangers on the internet is the cheapest form of therapy available. Leave a comment and tell me I'm beautiful.

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ivonlyjustbegun @ 2004-04-02T00:44:00

2004-04-02T08:45:34Z

hurry sunday. hurry. i need a vacation.

ivonlyjustbegun @ 2004-03-31T21:51:00

2004-04-01T05:51:55Z

ladi freakin da

ivonlyjustbegun @ 2004-03-28T22:47:00

2004-03-29T06:47:59Z

someone buy these for me k?

ivonlyjustbegun @ 2004-03-21T16:40:00

2004-03-22T00:43:57Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CINDY!!!!!!

Yay! you are 21 on the 21st! that only happens once in a lifetime. hope you have a great day! love ya! xoxo